A Personal Struggle

 

 

On Instagram I touched on this a little bit, but I believe a blog post more in-depth was needed.  This is a personal struggle that I deal with, but I know that many women feel this way.  I struggle with self-esteem and self-confidence issues.  I have had this since I was very little and I have not been able to shake it.  The reason why I have those issues?  I have such , SUCH,   low view of myself.  When I look in the mirror, I don't see someone who holds value in my family, friends, or even my fiancé's life. I look at other and wonder why I look like what I do and I view myself as stumpy and fat...these are just a few of the things I think.  No, I don't think this all of the time and no, it is not a conscious thought process that I think every waking moment. It, however, is there in the back of my mind and pops out at the worst times.

However, tonight I really start to remember and think about the message that Pastor preached on Sunday.  While it was talking about how to see a true disciple, he said a few key things that rang truth, no matter what the subject was!

               1. When we give our lives to Christ, that is when we truly find life.
               2. We are worth because the blood of Christ made us worthy.

Our live, beauty and worth, should be measured by Christ standards instead of the ones we have or the worlds.  While most of the time we do sink into the worlds view, remember to stop and think.  For myself, I put so much pressure on myself that I fall into a downward spiral until I cannot take it anymore.  However, don't let yourself hit rock bottom like I do. Remember to accept that we will fail in the actions that we try to do to be worthy or be viewed as beautiful, we are always covered by the blood of Christ. We are a new creature, worthy, have hope and relief in Christ and Christ alone.

Lots of deep thoughts as I watch the snow fall. Stay warm, my darlings! xoxo